Do you know how terrible i will feel? T.T

Well honey..i dont know what happen or what's going on. Are you ignoring or avoiding me ? This two days i have none of your news. Messages i send have been seen but u have not reply once. What i just know is sometime when i am online i just can saw you online a while and off,izit your line problem or you appear offline ? . Maybe you are busy? 

If you really busy can you at least let me know that you are busy? At least i know you are busy i won't interrupt you. You know how terrible do i feel now ? I don't know what going on or maybe i done something wrong or.... all kind of questions starts flowing and rotating in my mind. This two days I try to stay online as late as I can to check whether you have something to tell me or reply my message or what.... My phone haven't left by my side even I go to sleep...Every time i play games, watch movie using pc i will pause and check whether you leave any message to me ..but sadly there are none .You maybe will think why i must wait till so late or keeping my phone by my side, I just can tell you I wanna reply you as fast as I can, every time you text or message me i will reply when i received it,or maybe you can say I don't like replying you late or maybe sometimes you need my help I will help you as fast as I can. I just care about you.

I feel sad,lonely and I miss you so badly.I hope you at least tell me what going on ... don't make me feel that sucks feeling again and again... can ? You know i don't like the feeling of knowing nothing about you ,because i always worry about you and I love you. 

Sucks feeling ><

                                          

Well finally i can have some rest. A real rest i mean , no need worry about when there are test or full report have to submit. One week of relaxation . No stress at all, really very happy.

Well , honey i love you. I am very happy to know that u miss me, I like the way u chat to me , I like you want me to stay by your side like i usually does . Is been a torture week of test and exam. Everyday we rarely can meet each other cause difference of floor or block. To tell you honestly, i miss you.. i miss you very much.....everyday test i will think bout you, i worry bout you of all sort of things . Since we also seldom chat,it is like somehow loosing u in my sight. There are only limited info i can know from you and that make me worry and miss you more and more.

Now the test week ended.Comes  another torture week, although it is a relax week but i cant meet you in a week of time. I hate myself why today don't want to call you out to let me meet you personally and stay by your side for a day . Tomorrow i have to go back my home town and there is no time for us to meet for the whole week.. i regret very much .. very much, you know the feeling honey? it sucks!! I am very happy to hear your voice today, somehow I also miss them very much.Without u by my side, I cant feel the smile ,voice and happiness of yours. I miss you, miss you very much.

The feeling also sucks when i can't accompany you tomorrow. I know it make you no mood for a while. Sorry  honey , i also no mood at all. I don't know you will believe me that i said if you no mood i also wont happy at all , but i really do , i am not happy at all .All games i bought today that i wanna play for so long seem so boring because i dun have mood to play at all.I don't like to leave you, cause i don't want  to abandon you. I also felt sorry to you that today dint call you along with me to shopping that makes you no mood too. Sorry honey T.T

Finally, i scare about my test result , haiz... doing not quite good this time Nvm anyway , honey i love you, i miss you and i wont fully enjoy without you. Hope u have time to chat more or skype  and keep in touch with me during the holiday. At last still the same sentence : I miss you honey, miss you badly T^T.

kinda happy ^^ kinda sad T.T

WoW.... raya break XD very happy can rest .... but only for four days.. haiz ... should have 11 days in total but in my U it is not possible ><  Nvm just can accept the reality and enjoy my four days holidays haha


Is a quite relax week ... no test just some presentation ... but it is quite a torture week for me too in the beginning of the week. Hmm...tears drop many times when i think of i am going to leave you. But is ok now .... at least i know what you feel and what i wanna know ..

I wonder are u still reading my blog ... but nvm i just tell it here. You ask me what i like about you... i just answer you don't know ... then u say if don't know mean i not really very like you. Actually there is an answer in my heart i don't dare to voice out maybe it is too long and maybe you will say i am kidding when i am speaking in a not serious tone.. but now i should answer you ... 

what i like about you ?  i like your smile,i like your cuteness,i like your boyish,i like your kisiao, i like you when you scold bad words in a cute tone or rough tone , i like your serious when studying , i like your every thing no matter is good or bad... and this is only because i love you very much.And maybe you think i am just saying... but i never lie to you ... this is what i feel towards you, the feeling of loving you is that strong that every mood changes of yours will change mine too..my feeling is not priority anymore ever since i love you... cause your feelings are my priority.

Every moment with you is a happy moment and i appreciate it very much. I love you .... and i love you very much,honey ^^

kinda happy because is going to have a break but kinda sad because i gonna miss you very much xp

Can we just try it out once ?

Wow....finally can have some time to rest. It was quite a busy month. I was busy with test and presentation. Beside that i also found out my body not as tough as old days. Now i must sleep more, i really can't take it when i lack of sleep.Haizz.. maybe i am getting older ? haha

That day u give me a yes i really feel very happy. I never aspect you will give me a yes cause i always though i am just nothing in your heart.Sorry but maybe is not nothing is just not important in your heart. So when you ask me what will i do when you answer me yes or not i can't answer you because i only think of the answer is a no and i did not think about yes.

I feel very happy together with you and i never regret it. I just love you. When you feel bad , i wont feel better either, i will just keep worrying about you and try to make you feel better.

Before the sem ends,can we just try it out once  ? i know the ending ,but i just wanna be with you once, just this once,i don't want have any regret after leaving you . I wanna have at least some happy memories with you. Just this once, i never ask for anything else more.honey.. i always listen to you and do try my best to do what you want , can you just  this time listen to me once and give a chance for us to try it out? 

I am waiting for your answer ,and i hope you can pui me watch this movie together.

Happy XD

wow can't believe i will update my blog in a short time...nvm lets continue with the post... i just took some time to read my old post walao... i now only realize i am that emo guy which write a lot and alot........ haha maybe now i should cut short my words xD

OK whats so happy ?  i am happy because finally the test are partially finish and i can finally relax and enjoy for a short while, my short while is one day or two zzzzz but also consider very good d. By now i should be more relax bout myself cause last time i was comparing myself with the others very badly i scare i cant cope up with them >< seriously now is more better i start to relax myself.

Another thing is... i have a honey xD really good honey ^^  i love her always ^^ feels like wanna treat her very well in anytime , really dun like to see her emo and unhappy. For this moment i will put her in front of anything in my life xD  This is also why i should relax myself so that i can relax her...since she have serious kia su and kisiao syndrome xD haha LOVE U HONEY xD

Hope of this post is hope i can study well and score well in my test XD and of course hope my honey willl happy always and don't think too much^^

Have i change ?

Ok, updating my death blog again.is been a while,i start my busy uni life.Many things had change i rarely find my old friend because i don't have time. Somehow i miss them a lot, the time we play and study together, there are all nice memories to me.

As for the title of the post, have i change ? i did not focus on this question until today my mum call me and told me that i had change.She say i become not so patient anymore and easily get grumpy. I wonder i really do change? Or it just i too tired and cause me to get mad or grumpy easily.

The only thing i know is i do change in term of personality somehow i am more mature now and somehow i am nt so happy or easily get happy nowdays.I also will think too much .There is something missing about me compare to the old me, i don't know what is it,but i can feel that something is missing and it is important, izit the sot sot and happy go lucky style of my old self? maybe...

I met some new friends and some of them are very good, we get along very well.Uni life is busy like hell. At first i really can't take it, it is so pressure for me until i can't breath,seriously. But now is ok, i more worry about my test since i am not doing well in the physic and math test, just hope i won't fail ><

As for my relation, haha single >< hope i can find a girlfriend soon ^^  and at last i hope i can do well in my exam and study well. This is the most important thing for the moment xD so i just stop here for now until next time don't know when got time to update my blog again haha .

MIss.............

blog !! this is the only place i can bla... out all my feeling.

the exam is approaching and i am still............haiz ,but i still will study everyday in hari raya  la.

Haiz, recently i am having holiday,but this is the first time i don't like holiday,not just because is trial after the holidays but there is another reason. I miss something, something that steal my heart.I know is not right to think about love in this exam period but.......

I really know that how the ending will be,and i know she does not has feeling toward me (maybe got, but i don't know,but mostly no la) but i still willing to care about her. Don't know la,i am just a moron.

i hope she does not feel i am annoying her,but i just miss her.I will jealous about her sometimes and this is the first time i feel jealous for a girl. I don't know,maybe this is love.....

Then i found this song really nice and suite for me hope u all will love it too.That is 會呼吸的痛by Fish Leong .Missing will cause pain when breathing,this is what it mean. And this is very similar to my feeling for the moment.

I hope i can study all my subject before trial and i hope she won't stay away from me><