All about love .....

As i mention above,this post will all about love.I really like blog sometimes cause it can let me to write out what i am feeling or thinking at this moment,i can shout it out loud without interrupting others people,this is the way i like the most ^^

So, what is love? For me when i am still form 1 to 3, love is something that can make me happy and joyful with the one i like or love.But as i grown up and experienced more,i felt that it is true that love can make someone happy and joyful "IF" the one u love accept and care about u.But somehow this "IF"  seldom happen to me.So at this moment i felt that love is just something that make me torture or even headache.

That is what i think about love so far,so now i will talk about something about me related to this words-love.

Ok,sincerely i only love two girls before,is love not like.They two only have two similarities that is first,they are cute ^^ (maybe i do love cute girls after all, lol)second, they can change my mood and emotions. One of them is someone....nvm no need to mention here la.Another one obviously is the "she" i mentioned in previous posts recently.So maybe i just talk about "she" in this post.

Well,sometimes i really don't know why GOD will let me meet someone that i love but i know there is no hope between us.Why? there is too much reason.Just can't mention it all.So lets talk about "she".I love her,but i don't know how to get close to her,there is just some distance between us.Holidays is coming,well maybe call her for a hanged out since we haven't meet before.Erm,i gt think before but what can i talk to her when we meet? Would she hanged out with her guy which she never meet before? and lastly how should i ask her?

All these questions had lead to one conclusion that is "NO HOPE".Ya ,since the day i know her, i had already say to myself that there is no hope for me,but somehow i just feel sad or disappointed when i am nearly facing the truth that there is no hope for me in these few weeks.

Many things that i want to talk about in this post,but somehow i scared she will view this blog and find out the "she" i am talking about is her and our friendship will just BYE,BYE.Somehow i had experienced before that if the one u love knows u are loving her but she has no interest toward u,there will be a wall forming between u two,trust me,it happened to me.Actually at this moment i just wanna be friends with her,just

normal friends that can care each others by sms and hanged out to watch movies,but it is harder than i though to just have a normal friendship with a girl which has "distance" between us.

I think i just said too much,maybe i should stop here.Every post i wrote will have some hopes at the last of the post.I hope i will have a normal friendship with her and we can hanged out during this holidays plus i will have a nice and happy two weeks holidays ^^