A new sem had started ><

Well...as i said , my second sem had started. Is not a good thing to happy about because i know there  will be many reports and tests that will flooded into my life once again. Yup once again >< But the good thing about school... erm maybe I should say U reopen is i can meet my honey again .. haha what a happy thing in my life XD

Hmm... the last sem i done not quite well in my test so this sem i should be more hardworking to pull back my result to expectation. Hope i can do it  ^^ So , it comes to the second week of my second sem, i am relief it is still a relax week but i know it wont stay long cause  I know the style of my U that it will only let us torture and suffer to the max ..haiz


Anyway, during the sem break i have done nothing and just relaxing myself. I meet some of my old friends and i realized that they haven't change a bit .. haha maybe gt a bit more mature and a bit fierce and wild that they willing to gang bang the teacher in my secondary school haha Well nothing had change actually.... girl become more prettier and boy become more handsome and wild haha i guess they are enjoying their time anyway, unlike me sometimes stressing myself to hell .lol Well i do know form six is a tough year so i also wish them all the best in their study.

Ok so come back to me , my friends dint change a lot but i do feel i am changing a little. Erm...maybe in the term of mature or.. well i don't know but there is something that change after the sem 1 and the sem break. The only thing i confirm that had change is my feeling toward you, ya you , honey... that is I love you more and more till sometimes i cannot even control my feeling anymore.Especially when the feeling of emo strike my heart, i barely can feel anything. Forgive me honey, i try to control it, cause i know u said when i emo u will no mood too cause i don't talk much haha


Well, lets talk about today, is a quite happy day actually. Although the bio class was boring till max, but i am happy because can stay by your side for a long time. The feeling when you beside me really  nice, very happy  and comfortable too ^^  better than staying together with others , although sometime  can be happy but what the point happy without u by my side. I rather enjoy my every free moment with you,that the most happiest moment compare to others. Trust me i never lie to you, don't always say i looks happy with them in fact  i will be more happy when with you. Although i know the time we can be together in sem 2 are getting lesser but I am still happy that you can still be my side for sometimes.Ya i swear i will wait for u to go toilet from now on and wont like last time like that letting you getting alone XD 

Lol now i only realized i wrote to long so i just end here, At last lets see a photo of the master piece that draw by my honey which always get fail in her art test XD 

lol this is what will happen when she is too boring and i am too concentrate coppying the note -- She will draw draw and draw xp although is not  a good drawing (sorry haha) but i really dint wash it immediately after bath haha must keep it over night to happy about it ... haha silly me.. love you honey ^^

Do you know how terrible i will feel? T.T

Well honey..i dont know what happen or what's going on. Are you ignoring or avoiding me ? This two days i have none of your news. Messages i send have been seen but u have not reply once. What i just know is sometime when i am online i just can saw you online a while and off,izit your line problem or you appear offline ? . Maybe you are busy? 

If you really busy can you at least let me know that you are busy? At least i know you are busy i won't interrupt you. You know how terrible do i feel now ? I don't know what going on or maybe i done something wrong or.... all kind of questions starts flowing and rotating in my mind. This two days I try to stay online as late as I can to check whether you have something to tell me or reply my message or what.... My phone haven't left by my side even I go to sleep...Every time i play games, watch movie using pc i will pause and check whether you leave any message to me ..but sadly there are none .You maybe will think why i must wait till so late or keeping my phone by my side, I just can tell you I wanna reply you as fast as I can, every time you text or message me i will reply when i received it,or maybe you can say I don't like replying you late or maybe sometimes you need my help I will help you as fast as I can. I just care about you.

I feel sad,lonely and I miss you so badly.I hope you at least tell me what going on ... don't make me feel that sucks feeling again and again... can ? You know i don't like the feeling of knowing nothing about you ,because i always worry about you and I love you. 

Sucks feeling ><

                                          

Well finally i can have some rest. A real rest i mean , no need worry about when there are test or full report have to submit. One week of relaxation . No stress at all, really very happy.

Well , honey i love you. I am very happy to know that u miss me, I like the way u chat to me , I like you want me to stay by your side like i usually does . Is been a torture week of test and exam. Everyday we rarely can meet each other cause difference of floor or block. To tell you honestly, i miss you.. i miss you very much.....everyday test i will think bout you, i worry bout you of all sort of things . Since we also seldom chat,it is like somehow loosing u in my sight. There are only limited info i can know from you and that make me worry and miss you more and more.

Now the test week ended.Comes  another torture week, although it is a relax week but i cant meet you in a week of time. I hate myself why today don't want to call you out to let me meet you personally and stay by your side for a day . Tomorrow i have to go back my home town and there is no time for us to meet for the whole week.. i regret very much .. very much, you know the feeling honey? it sucks!! I am very happy to hear your voice today, somehow I also miss them very much.Without u by my side, I cant feel the smile ,voice and happiness of yours. I miss you, miss you very much.

The feeling also sucks when i can't accompany you tomorrow. I know it make you no mood for a while. Sorry  honey , i also no mood at all. I don't know you will believe me that i said if you no mood i also wont happy at all , but i really do , i am not happy at all .All games i bought today that i wanna play for so long seem so boring because i dun have mood to play at all.I don't like to leave you, cause i don't want  to abandon you. I also felt sorry to you that today dint call you along with me to shopping that makes you no mood too. Sorry honey T.T

Finally, i scare about my test result , haiz... doing not quite good this time Nvm anyway , honey i love you, i miss you and i wont fully enjoy without you. Hope u have time to chat more or skype  and keep in touch with me during the holiday. At last still the same sentence : I miss you honey, miss you badly T^T.

kinda happy ^^ kinda sad T.T

WoW.... raya break XD very happy can rest .... but only for four days.. haiz ... should have 11 days in total but in my U it is not possible ><  Nvm just can accept the reality and enjoy my four days holidays haha


Is a quite relax week ... no test just some presentation ... but it is quite a torture week for me too in the beginning of the week. Hmm...tears drop many times when i think of i am going to leave you. But is ok now .... at least i know what you feel and what i wanna know ..

I wonder are u still reading my blog ... but nvm i just tell it here. You ask me what i like about you... i just answer you don't know ... then u say if don't know mean i not really very like you. Actually there is an answer in my heart i don't dare to voice out maybe it is too long and maybe you will say i am kidding when i am speaking in a not serious tone.. but now i should answer you ... 

what i like about you ?  i like your smile,i like your cuteness,i like your boyish,i like your kisiao, i like you when you scold bad words in a cute tone or rough tone , i like your serious when studying , i like your every thing no matter is good or bad... and this is only because i love you very much.And maybe you think i am just saying... but i never lie to you ... this is what i feel towards you, the feeling of loving you is that strong that every mood changes of yours will change mine too..my feeling is not priority anymore ever since i love you... cause your feelings are my priority.

Every moment with you is a happy moment and i appreciate it very much. I love you .... and i love you very much,honey ^^

kinda happy because is going to have a break but kinda sad because i gonna miss you very much xp

Can we just try it out once ?

Wow....finally can have some time to rest. It was quite a busy month. I was busy with test and presentation. Beside that i also found out my body not as tough as old days. Now i must sleep more, i really can't take it when i lack of sleep.Haizz.. maybe i am getting older ? haha

That day u give me a yes i really feel very happy. I never aspect you will give me a yes cause i always though i am just nothing in your heart.Sorry but maybe is not nothing is just not important in your heart. So when you ask me what will i do when you answer me yes or not i can't answer you because i only think of the answer is a no and i did not think about yes.

I feel very happy together with you and i never regret it. I just love you. When you feel bad , i wont feel better either, i will just keep worrying about you and try to make you feel better.

Before the sem ends,can we just try it out once  ? i know the ending ,but i just wanna be with you once, just this once,i don't want have any regret after leaving you . I wanna have at least some happy memories with you. Just this once, i never ask for anything else more.honey.. i always listen to you and do try my best to do what you want , can you just  this time listen to me once and give a chance for us to try it out? 

I am waiting for your answer ,and i hope you can pui me watch this movie together.

Happy XD

wow can't believe i will update my blog in a short time...nvm lets continue with the post... i just took some time to read my old post walao... i now only realize i am that emo guy which write a lot and alot........ haha maybe now i should cut short my words xD

OK whats so happy ?  i am happy because finally the test are partially finish and i can finally relax and enjoy for a short while, my short while is one day or two zzzzz but also consider very good d. By now i should be more relax bout myself cause last time i was comparing myself with the others very badly i scare i cant cope up with them >< seriously now is more better i start to relax myself.

Another thing is... i have a honey xD really good honey ^^  i love her always ^^ feels like wanna treat her very well in anytime , really dun like to see her emo and unhappy. For this moment i will put her in front of anything in my life xD  This is also why i should relax myself so that i can relax her...since she have serious kia su and kisiao syndrome xD haha LOVE U HONEY xD

Hope of this post is hope i can study well and score well in my test XD and of course hope my honey willl happy always and don't think too much^^

Have i change ?

Ok, updating my death blog again.is been a while,i start my busy uni life.Many things had change i rarely find my old friend because i don't have time. Somehow i miss them a lot, the time we play and study together, there are all nice memories to me.

As for the title of the post, have i change ? i did not focus on this question until today my mum call me and told me that i had change.She say i become not so patient anymore and easily get grumpy. I wonder i really do change? Or it just i too tired and cause me to get mad or grumpy easily.

The only thing i know is i do change in term of personality somehow i am more mature now and somehow i am nt so happy or easily get happy nowdays.I also will think too much .There is something missing about me compare to the old me, i don't know what is it,but i can feel that something is missing and it is important, izit the sot sot and happy go lucky style of my old self? maybe...

I met some new friends and some of them are very good, we get along very well.Uni life is busy like hell. At first i really can't take it, it is so pressure for me until i can't breath,seriously. But now is ok, i more worry about my test since i am not doing well in the physic and math test, just hope i won't fail ><

As for my relation, haha single >< hope i can find a girlfriend soon ^^  and at last i hope i can do well in my exam and study well. This is the most important thing for the moment xD so i just stop here for now until next time don't know when got time to update my blog again haha .