Wakaka,i have a pair of panda eyes!! Why? Nothing,just doing something foolish . I read all the post she had post on her blog.Last time i tried to read all of her post but ,i give up after i read a few post because i read from the middle of her post and the post she wrote was freaking long,just like writing essay( paiseh,i also write my blog in the same way xp).But last night,i take my initiative to read all of her 09 year post in one night.
I dint read all of it on the pc cause i am only allow to on my pc until 12.00am.So i copy all of the post and sent it into my phone and i read it in my room alone,clever leh,lol. I know i am stupid and foolish,but what to do,i just care about her and i wanna know more about her.
So,what i know from her post after reading the whole night.Well,i know more about her past,i know some of her attitude and some of her like and dislike.I dunnoe why she gave many others people a bad image,had she done something horrible in the past? i have no idea,what i know is she still miss her ex-bf which is the one that is the type of guy she love.
I manage to cover up her this year post this morning,do i looks like a stalker?hmm....maybe a little.I felt that i have nothing that can match to her,.She is a girl that had gone through many things compare to me? I am just a little boy that starting to grow up and understand more,well i admit that i had change a lot since the beginning of the year,but there is still many thing i had to learn.I am too under protected by my parents last two years,and now i really want to learn what i missed in the past to years.When i was form 1 and 2,what am i doing? i still addicted to pc game,what is she doing? She is trying to learn many things and know what she really needs.Compare to her,i am just a piece of JUNK!!
Haiz....besides,i found out that if i am her bf (just if) i cant even give what her ex-bf can gave her,such as sitting beside her and accompany her when she is sick in her house.Can i do that? the answer is no,i dunnoe i even dare to step into her house.There is many things more, but i just can't mention it here.The only thing that i can give her in this moment is try to comfort her when she share something out .
But this few week, i think she start to ignore me,i dunnoe, usually we can chat for long time ,but somehow this few weeks, even i say something interesting to make her laugh she will just ignore it.Maybe is something due to what i act a few weeks ago,i though it was nothing after she chat back with me normally but somehow it turns out to be something after a few weeks.
Am i really annoying? i felt that i am,but i dunnoe what she think,at least i know i am a annoying.I wanna stop to care about her for just maybe one or two weeks,but dunnoe why i just will chat to her when i know she feels sad or angry,really dunnoe,maybe i still have difficulties to control my emotion properly.I just cant help it ><.But i found out something that we are similar,that is we dun have much people to trust and talk ,we like to express our feeling in the blog.Blogspot,i love u so much!!
At last,i really hope i will chat to her normally and pls dun ignore me,maybe u just reply a thank or lol or ok lo will be enough for me.I will be your side whenever u need me,i promise u.
Before i forget i wanna introduce one song to u all, 神木与瞳-好想为你哭. This song really nice but i prefer nt so man voice for this song,just my opinion la,haha.
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